truth

one of my friend told me the truth.
and she asked me to think thoroughly, as an adult.
actually, it's not that i had never think of it before, but i didn't take it seriously.


Allah knows what is inside urs and mine.

So, hopefully, I'm not worrying too much.

Wassalam.

it's the Eid season

there are 2 memorable and unforgettable occasions which were so special that happened during this Eid season.

the first one was...

gave Cikgu Majid [my homeroom teacher when I was in MJSC Lenggong in year 2003 and 2004] a call.

me: Assalamualaikum, Cikgu. ni Aainaa ni. Selamat Hari Raya, Cikgu.
Cikgu: Owh, Aainaa. Selamat Hari Raya. Kamu apa khabar, skang?
me: Baik, baik. Cikgu plak macam mana? Buat apa lepas bersara?
Cikgu: Cikgu sihat je. Cuma skang kena makan ubat, pasalnya ada darah tinggi. Skang ni, duk-duk rumah je. Berkebun sket-sket. Aina kat USM lagi ke?
me: Haah.. kat USM lagi. lambat lagi, Cikgu. Skang ni tahun ke-4. Ada setahun lagi, Insya Allah..
Cikgu: Owh.. dah x lama dah tu..
me: Jap eh, Cikgu.. Ayah nak cakap dengan Cikgu.

after finished chit-chatting on the phone...

Ayah: Cikgu Majid cakap suara na masih sama macam kat Lenggong dulu.
me: sama? sama macam mana?
Ayah: Ayah pun tak tau. Cikgu Majid tu masih ingat lagi aina.

another one was...

a simple message was sent by me...

Salam.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Dr Hazar.
Maaf Zahir & Batin.

`Aainaa Nur Raihana Abdullah
R1 PASUM 05/06

a simple message had been replied from Dr Hazar...

Salam. Thanks Aainaa.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to u 2. Entah nape ramai ex-assasian ingat saya hari ni.
How r u? Aainaa d USM kan?
Work hard n take care.

- Dr. Hazar Bebe

felt good that my PA [Penasihat Akademik] from the college [which i have graduated from about 4 years ago] still could remember me even though i was not really a good student who keep on asking questions and knocking on the lecturers' doors.

it made me realize that, students always and tend to forget who their teachers are, but not the other way round. so, call up your teachers, especially around this special Eid season and greet them with suprised wishes.


Wassalam.

J'en ai marre [I'm fed up!]

Alizee- J'en ai marre (English version)

Bubbles and water
Legs up for hours
My goldfish is under me
To bathe for hours
Makes my mouth water
I'm "foamely" ecstatic
It's not a problem
I lazy 'round
Bubbly and stubborn
I lazy 'round
Melon and water
Is just a dream
It makes me wonder
Is it a "sin" ?

Bubbles and water
Legs up for hours
"Bombs", you keep away from me!
Today lying low
Twisting up my toes
I swim in such harmony
So what bothers me

Chorus :
I'm fed up with loneliness
With my uncle overstressed
Fumbling, crawling for something
That never shows, just a dream.
I'm fed up with creeps crying
Over the past, such a sin
Not to be cool, but a fool
If I could mess up their rules.
I'm fed up with your complaints
Baby, well I'm not a saint!
Fed up with the rain, the plane...
That makes me throw up again.
I'm fed up with all cynics
Bathing caps and all critics
I'm fed up with being fed up! Poor me!

Bubbles and water
Legs up for hours
My goldfish still under me!
Delight of pleasures
Aquatic treasures
A place out of misery, my fantasy.


Wassalam.

a lesson for said-to-be world class uni

UM ambil masa 5 tahun semak rekod pelajar?

PAGI 24 Ogos 2009, saya mendapat satu panggilan telefon. ‘‘Hello, siapa di sana,’’ saya menyapa ringkas. Jawab pemanggil, ‘‘Saya buat panggilan dari Universiti Malaya... boleh saya bercakap dengan Aina?’’ Jawab saya, ‘‘Anak saya berada di USM Kubang Kerian, kenapa?’’ Tanya saya pendek.

‘‘Mengikut rekod kami, beliau masih lagi berhutang dengan universiti sebanyak RM200 lebih iaitu yuran standard yang dikenakan kepada setiap pelajar yang memasuki Pusat Asasi Sains UM sebagai yuran pendaftaran.’’ kata pemanggil itu.

‘‘Aik!’’ Jawab saya dengan rasa terkejut. Jelas saya lagi, ‘‘Takkan selepas empat tahun lebih, pihak universiti baru perasan yang anak saya tidak menjelaskan yuran pendaftaran kemasukan. Sedangkan semasa dia mendaftar di Pusat Asasi Sains UM pada bulan Mei 2005 dahulu, saya yang menjelaskan yuran ini di bank iaitu mengikut arahan sebagaimana dalam surat tawaran.’’

‘‘Kerana syarat pendaftaran, pelajar tidak boleh didaftarkan sehingga pelajar itu tidak menunjukkan slip bank yang membuktikan yuran pendaftaran telah dijelaskan. You all ni tak buat kerja ke?’’ Saya mulai naik marah.

Inikah standard yang dikatakan universiti bertaraf World Class. Sehinggakan ambil masa hampir lima tahun untuk mengesan seseorang pelajarnya yang tidak menjelaskan yuran.

‘‘Ini bukan salah saya lagi. You all semak la dengan bank sebab slip bank yang kita gunakan itu ada tercetak butiran lengkap nama pelajar dan nombor kad pengenalan. Salinan slip bank ini juga kami serahkan semasa pendaftaran dahulu. Itu tugas you sekarang, saya tidak mahu masuk campur. Saya tidak kira berapa puluh tahun lagi you nak semak, you semak. Yang pasti, saya hendak bersihkan nama anak saya itu daripada rekod yang telah dicap liat menjelaskan hutang akibat kecuaian orang lain,’’ ujar saya lagi.

Dalam tempoh tersebut, saya tidak pernah pula menerima sebarang notis tuntutan tunggakan yuran tersebut. Sedangkan saya sudah tinggal di alamat yang sama lebih 20 tahun. Sekarang zaman ICT yang canggih- manggih. Apakah Universiti Malaya sebagai universiti yang tertua di rantau Asia ini masih tidak berubah menyemak rekod pelajarnya menggunakan kaedah teknologi purba.

Walaupun ini merupakan kes terpencil, pada saya masalah berkaitan dengan kewangan ini tidak sepatutnya berlaku dalam tempoh yang begitu lama. Cuba andaikan pelajar itu tidak lagi menyimpan rekod-rekod pembayaran yang dibuat. Apakah pihak universiti bersedia untuk menimbang bagi mengabaikan begitu sahaja hutang tersebut? Tentunya tidak.

Senario ini hanyalah untuk renungan mereka yang telah diberi amanah. Kadang-kadang kita lupa amanah yang dipertanggungjawab itu amat berat dipikul kepada orang yang tahu nilainya. Kecuali bagi mereka yang menilainya dengan kebendaan.

Comment:

Alhamdulillah, praised be to Allah SWT. My name and my dignity had been cleared from that title of "LIAT MENJELASKAN HUTANG". However, I was very frustrated with that university. Four years ago, I was so frustrated since I was not listed as one of the students in that university despite all the "janji manis" the university made. And now, they blamed me for not paying my fee. Maybe, they should go and revise the system which they already had for future convenience.

Wassalam.

neurosurgeons and me

this morning was quite a surprise :)

i was given a considered-to-be once in a life time experience (if i won't end up as a neurosurgeon which i think a no-no for me).. Dr. Sani Sayuthi (one of the neurosurgeons) was asking a question, and i thought he was asking us (anna, sim and me) to do the lumbar puncture.. and as a usual me, i would just shake my head as a refusal!!! but then, as a result, Dr. Sani asked me to follow him.. and suddenly, the scrubbing started.. i was like, "okay... what's going on???". regretted bcoz i shook my head in the earlier part. after srubbing was done, he took out 2 sets of white packets stuff which contained surgery gowns and gloves.. [i was wondering at that time, coz i've seen how a lumbar puncture was done before, and why for this time, we have to wear such gown??] then, he started showing me on how to put on the gown.. but i did it wrongly and thus, he throwed off the gown under the troly there.. okay.. at that time, i was like kinda shocked.. coz afraid that he would scold me, but then, i was absolutely wrong.. Dr. Sani was not that kind of man who would easily get irritated in dealing with students like me.. haha~ so, after wearing the gown and glove, re-entered the operation theatre with him.. he took over the surgery from Dr. Gee and Dr. Gee was asked to teach our group for the lumbar puncture session.. so, i stood next to Dr. Muaz (who was by that time, cutting off the cranium).. holding the sucker.. given the responsibility to suck out the blood and water.. but actually, most of the time, i was only watching, watching and watching... when Dr. Sani took over the operation, Dr. Sani had my right pointing finger touching the brain... Masya Allah, that was my very first time of touching a living human brain.. the living human brain was so soft, and yet, we could still be the hard core living human.. hehe~ Dr. Sani also asked us (ghani, mawardi and me) about the cranial stuff.. anatomy in particular.. what else, i could simply answer, "I don't know".. when i stood next to him when he did the operation, he asked me, "what do i know?".. and the usual me would say, "entahlaa..". haha~ after that, Dr. Gee took over the operation.. helped in assisting him to loose and tighten the "screw" for what-so-called snake.. that was my 1st time and of coz, i didn't know on how to do it.. i did it wrong.. apa lagi?? kena sound laa dengan Dr. Gee.. huhu~ but then, Dr. Gee cakap, "Sorry.. sorry.. i bukan nak marah..". just nodded my head.. haha~ then, Dr. Sani asked Dr. Muaz to take over my place.. haha~ Dr. Sani then taught us on looking on the CT Scan and CT Angiography... and he would asked us questions, and taught us about them.. really like his style coz his style had taught me not to be a lazy medical student as i used to be.. huhu~ and by the end of the operation, i could see how's tremor Dr. Gee's hand was when he was trying to clamp the aneurysm.. and the best thing about it was i was given a chance to hold that i-don't-know what thing that was used to clamp the aneurysm.. waahaha~ suka-suka!!!! told Dr. Sani not to challenge me coz if he did, i might took over his place one day... he just laughed and asked me to prove it.. (since masuk neuroscience posting, that was the countless times I saw him not to be so garang as he used to be when i was in my 3rd year.. kalau dulu, in 3rd year, memang sangat2 takut laa nak pegi lecture dia, coz he would randomly picked and asked anyone in the lecture.. but luckily, tak pernah terkena!!!).. haha~ eventhough i was so nervous, but i tried to control it coz i always bear in mind that any strange action i do will endager the patient's life.. this is about "acting" to clump with your hand, and looking the aneurysm site with the microscope.. it was such a difficut task for a just medical student like me.. Dr. Sani said that I was QUITE good and NOT THAT BAD, but then he "mengumpat" me with Dr. Gee.. i heard that he said, probably I was not shaking so much bcoz I was not aware of what I was doing (that kind of thing.. haha~).. mawardi and ghani said i had intention tremor.. but I didn't care about it so much.. anyway, who would be bothered about it if he or she had an opportunity to help in assisting an emergency neurology surgery??? yay!!! praised be to Allah SWT for this opportunity and big THANKS to Dr. Sani for initiating me to study harder..

p/s: to dilla and ainaa is, please don't be jealous yer!!! hehe~

Wassalam.