Praise be to HIM

i cried for the last few days.. bukan hanya kerana takutkan result yang bakal dihadapi, bahkan mengimbau kembali kenangan-kenangan bersama examiners.

i had long case with an external examiner and Prof Kamaliah. i got ALL case. i really don't want this case.. i was hoping for a much easier case, but Allah knows the best for me.. So, He gave me this ALL case.. the problem I faced was not that big enough... except for the prognostic part... the external examiner (a paediatrician, I supposed) asked me, what investigation would you like to do to confirm remission? (something like this). I blurred, but not to keep myself quiet. I just said, I would like to send blood investigation such as Full Blood Count to see for anemic status (a very basic investigation.. actually, i just don't want to keep myself silent).. then, the external repeated the question, so, how do you confirm remission? silent. i just say, Bone Marrow Aspiration. and suddenly, he said, YES! Phew~ leganya... but that was not the end. He added, so, how do you confirm remission? and there we go again. OBVIOUSLY, i didn't know the answer... then, i said, when the blast cells reduce (i've read this somewhere).. ok, he said. but, how many percent? owh ooo... i didn't know... i looked at Prof Kamaliah, and i glanced at Dr Nazri, but knowing that i would get no answer. so, i looked at the external examiner again... i said, 8%?? he said, ALMOST ACCURATE GUESS. it was 5%. OoPss~ (huh! lucky guess, but i wasn't suppose to do that. i just should say, Sorry, Sir. I don't know, instead of saying 8%). hurm.. i regretted a bit. actually, i've read this topic, a long time ago, like 6 weeks ago, and yet, I could recall nothing much... but I'm very very very thankful to Allah, the Almighty.. coz without Him, I wouldn't have the courage to face this... Thank You, Allah :)

as for short cases, I had swelling at the left hand, axillary lump and fibroid.
1) the first case, the Dr asked me, what is the name of tumor that could possibly coming from tendon? urgh~ i tried to recall. i could recall faten's face, telling us, the tumor's name. I could remember nothing. padahal, i really like bone tumors so much before! i couldn't even remember GIANT CELL TUMOR. urgh~ Prof Faisham must be very upset about this. I was in OORU's team when i was in 4th year.. I did enjoy my posting, eventhough the doctors didn't really bother about us (hey, they still noticed our existence, ok! at least~)

2) the axillary lump case. this was the most horrible, as I could appreciate no lump initially. but Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me some hypersensation of the fingers... the horrible part was, when the sarcastic surgeon asked me, the drainage of the axilla, and that was obviously a basic question.. but i only knew, lymph drainage of the breast which will drain to axilla.. i didn't know others! urgh~ i felt like crying, and didn't want to move to the next station.. and luckily, Prof Nora was there. she held me, by my shoulder.. grabbed me to her station..

3) the most calm one.. after leaving this station, i cried hardly. hugged yasmin. and lucky me, she was there, in front of me. to support me. i owe her a lot.

today, went to see the lecturers.. met Prof Nora.. i said, sorry, Prof.. teruk sangat buat short cases hari tu... then, she replied, memang teruk pun... nasib baik lulus jer.. sigh~ terpaksa terima pukulan manja depan semua orang. urgh~ memalukan! and yet, akan jadi sweet memory! Insya Allah, saya akan work harder, Prof :)


Alhamdulillah.. nama sudah pun diumumkan.. bererti, pengajianku sebagai undergrad student sudah pun tamat... segulung ijazah bakal dibawa pulang.. gambar graduasi bakal digantungkan (Ayah, please keep note on this ye! I want my photo, hang up next to yours, mama's or azim's) hehe~

just to quote something from my reading, Nik Nur Madihah said in the book, "Kejayaan ini bukan milikku mutlak. Aku hanya sebuah alat yang telah diusahakan oleh ramai orang: ibu bapa, guru-guru dan teman-teman. Yang pasti, aku adalah alat yakni khalifah Allah yang mempunyai tanggungjawab yang besar untuk `mengotakan' ilmu yang telah dipelajari di jalanNya.


TERIMA KASIH YANG TAK TERHINGGA BUAT SEMUA! HANYA ALLAH YANG MAMPU MEMBALAS JASA BAIK KALIAN :D


sekian, Wassalam.

a good ones!

a friend of mine said: Yang penting study.. Stress ke, ada masalah ke, tak masuk mana ke, takpa... Yang tu letak ke tepi.. Yang penting kita usaha, do'a dan tawakkal.. Mana tahu masa exam nanti, Allah permudahkan.. Apa yang kita baca, kita faham masuk... katanya lagi: Teringat pula zaman2 dulu., masa kita nk pro 1., lebih krg jugak kan situasinya., risau mcm2, stress pn ada., tp alhamdulillah kita berjaya., bkn setakat pro 1 je., Allah dah permudahkan utk kita naik ke thn 2, 3, 4, dan sampai lah sekarang, final year., Mungkin dulu kita pernah terbayang apa kita mampu nak hadapi semua ni., betapa mencabarnya nk menempuh jalan ini., tak dinafikan, among the toughest route., tp bila difikir., ada sebab semua nie berlaku., Allah percaya, Dia yakin kita mampu hadapi semua nie., If Allah is with us, who else dare to against us., believe in ourself, believe in Allah., mesti percaya, nanti kan berjaya... thanks a lot, my friend... rasa smangat tetiba! :)

kata ayah

"Sekarang ini ibarat menghampiri garisan penamat, momentum dikerahkan untuk mendaki puncak kejayaan... Aina tak keseorangan. Ayah & Mama tidak jemu-jemu mengiringi doa, agar kecekalan tidak mudah pudar, dan Insya Allah, gerbang kejayaan menanti pasti..."

wisdom words

звезда

If you are meant to be the one, no matter what happens, nothing is going to change that. Of course you have to work really hard. But there are times when no matter how hard you put effort into something, there are still some things you can't do anything about - Dr. SMS

So impressive!


Wassalam.

kembara bandung [day 3] - 280610

(Nurul, Aina, Mai, Amy, Yati)

Malaysian friends!
They are very very very friendly. With lotsa talking too!
No wonder Mai suits them well! Haha~

my third day begun early. rent toyota avanza with supir (driver) for half day duration, which had cost us Rp 300,000. quite cheap for 6 person! went to Mount Tangkuban Parahu. It is one of the active volcanoes in the world. Actually, it is near to the city, but the problem here in Indonesia is, the roads, were not really good. Bukan jer bersimpang-siur sebab itu kan kawasan bukit, tapi siap berlopak-lopak juger laa sikit-sikit.. But those did not matter much! As long as I can go to this volcano, I would be satisfied! Why? Coz people said, "If you go to Bandung and you don't go to Tangkuban Parahu, it means that you have not really go to Bandung yet". That is what people said! Not me! Haha~

at the entrance, we were shocked coz the person in charge asked us to pay about Rp 300,000 for the entrance fee! 6 tickets for Rp 300,000?!!! So expensive! but after they were showing their ma3x card, we only had to pay Rp 100,00. One third of the initial entrance fee!!! What a suprised?! [I got escaped!!! Haha~]

As I got down from the car, I could smell the unpleasant sulfur!

Trip members!

This is what I got from Wikipedia. Almost similar to what Aina (one of Mai's housemates who is also studying in ITB) had been storytelling us, but of course, Aina's story was much more detail!

The name translates roughly to "upturning of a boat" or "upturned boat" in Sundanese, referring to the local legend of its creation. The story tells of "Dayang Sumbi", a beauty who lived in West Java. She cast away her son "Sangkuriang" for disobedience, and in her sadness was granted the power of eternal youth by the gods. After many years in exile, Sangkuriang decided to return to his home, long after the two had forgotten and failed to recognize each other. Sangkuriang fell in love with Dayang Sumbi and planned to marry her, only for Dayang Sumbi to recognize his birthmark just as he was about to go hunting. In order to prevent the marriage from taking place, Dayang Sumbi asked Sangkuriang to build a dam on the river Citarum and to build a large boat to cross the river, both before the sunrise. Sangkuriang meditated and summoned mythical ogre-like creatures -buta hejo or green giant(s)- to do his bidding. Dayang Sumbi saw that the tasks were almost completed and called on her workers to spread red silk cloths east of the city, to give the impression of impending sunrise. Sangkuriang was fooled, and upon believing that he had failed, kicked the dam and the unfinished boat, resulting in severe flooding and the creation of Tangkuban perahu from the hull of the boat.

Big thanks to Aina for the great story you told us! :)

hot and spicy steamed potatoes, veggies, and siew mai

betapa lakunya makanan yang dijual mak cik ni!


so, where's the Tangkuban Perahu or the upturned boat?

it should be there!
but look at the fogged mountain!
the boat was hidden!

these are the burned & blackish trees.
might be due to the high content of sulfur in this volcanic area.

and yet, it is still flowering!
Subhanallah.

the volcanic crater of Mount Tangkuban Perahu

with Amy.
we were the first timers!!!

Aina & Amy
and of coz, with the other tourists...

It was quite cold, but the one behing me was wearing short!
I bet the hairs would be standing still... You know, as to maintain the body heat! haha~

the crowd!

zooming in; they are Malaysians!

the hardworking men!

we paid their hardwork!
each scarf costs us Rp 10,000 only!
in other words, it means RM 3.63 only!
haha~

the musholla

after Mount Tangkuban Perahu trip, stopped by to have our lunch. Dare to have Sate Ayam despite ....

the hanged chicken head!

my lunch; Sate Ayam! :P


after that, went to Sari Ater Hot Spring Resort, or better known as Ciater!


ITB friends! sweet sweet memories!

is this candid?

one of the hot springs there.
met a sweet couple from Johor here!

Mai wanted to jump, but into this shallow hot spring!
Aina, you should let Mai's hands off! haha~

peace for flying fox!!! owh yeah!!!

Aina & Amy
fear to height?
tried to be fearless!

haunted house!

went for ATV, but it closed!

nevermind, still can try it out at Sunway Lagoon! :)

mas tebar murtabak yang comel! haha~

murtabak manis!
macam apam balik jer rupanya!!!

our Rp 17,000 dinner
sedap & manis!!!
dan besar jugak!!!

See! Traveling is not only about having fun, but it is a source of obtaining knowledge as well! Not only that, it is also about learning the background of the people from other places.


Wassalam.